As you probably could tell from my last post, now that we're
If I'm honest - it's not that I'm comfortable. Really it's that I have a 5 month old baby, haven't slept through the night except maybe 3-4 times since he arrived, and I keep forgetting that when I'm exhausted by the end of the night and don't feel like cleaning off the kitchen island. Then I feel lazy and wonder if 6 is going to put mie over the edge. It's not. I know that without a doubt. And then I remind myself I'm just tired because I have an infant with no "new mom hormones" (and yes, that makes a difference in helping combat sleepiness) and no post-partum break from work because in reality, I'm only kind of post partum.
But I didn't come here to complain, I came to celebrate the support I've received in getting ready for the new kiddos.
(BTW - reach out to your local foster/expectant adoptive parent to let them know you're rooting for them just as you would an expectant mother! It will mean the world to them, especially when they're expecting "multiples").
In the past few days I've had a few reminders that things are going to be ok and I've been really grateful.
First - I needed to talk about our next steps with my hubby. I made a point to discuss the risks similar to what I wrote about on Monday, except in greater detail. His response was "I don't see anything happening that will stop us from moving forward. I know it might be difficult." This was a very solid answer from my hubby who, at times, can be a little intimidated by out-of-the-norm behavior (and the idea of 6 kids). He was confident that this IS what we're going to do (if given the chance) and we'll do whatever it takes to make it work.
Second - A sweet friend this morning wrote on her Facebook page about how her newest foster placement has improved so much in the short time she's had him. Now, that isn't always the case and after 20 foster children (and a handful of RADlets) I certainly understand that well. But I also know that even WITH the RADlets I've had the behavior, though difficult, DID improve at least a little due to proper care and stability. There are no guarantees with these new kiddos but I know it IS possible and more importantly, our God is able.
I love that.