You know how when someone struggles with something and they ask for prayer it almost always gets worse before it gets better.
I'm not giving the devil any credit here, but I know that when we commit to seeking God and turning to him to provide us with what we want the enemy tries to stop us with discouragement. He tries to throw it in our face like "see, God doesn't listen to you or he doesn't care".
Its horrible that my issue is what it is, and I apologize in advance for this more negative post.
I asked my small group to pray for me this week, since more and more people are asking about when we are agoing to have another baby and how, since we would love to have another baby but it just doesn't happen right away for us, or hasn't yet, that I know it will probably start to bother me at some point.
Now I have people praying for me (and J) to help get us through this time when we are not yet allowed to have another baby and of course, what happens? I hear of a pregnancy in a close friend.
Don't get me wrong...I am THRILLED for her. Absolutely completely excited. WOOHOO! We have sons that are 3 months apart, and I love it when we can get together. WE went through our first pregnancies together and would love to go through another with her.
But its that age old problem those of us with less than perfect fertility face. Thrilled for them, heartbroken for us. And, actually, I'm not heartbroken. My wonderful husband always does a good job keeping my head and heart in the right place and for the most part since we've wanted to be pregnant again nothing has really affected me. But this one did. For a few minutes I was sad.
My point about this blog is to urge us all not to give up praying about this...I'm not giving up and giving in to what the enemy would try and have me believe and feel and distract me from the track I've been on toward an extremely passionate relationship with Christ.
I'm so grateful for those of you out there that continue to pray for us and encourage us. Its such a blessing to know we can share with you and we have your support :)