Our home is now empty. Of course it's not really empty - we always have our forever kids (God willing!). (I need to stop and point that out from time to time for myself if not anyone else.) As foster parents our lives can become centered on when kids come and go and not having foster children can make it feel empty or incomplete but the reality is that our forever kids are wonderful and not at all forgotten. At all. Ever.
(I say this while 3,000 miles away from my kiddos right now and I miss them terribly).
All this said - we no longer have any of our foster kiddos. All of the 3 we brought into our home in August are now gone. #13 (who I never added to my list of kiddos? crazy...) left after 3 or 4 weeks. #12 left in October. #11 just left last weekend. This last departure made us very sad. Though our kiddo went to a good home that loved him very much, we loved him very much too and will miss him. This family has offered to help us get our kiddos together so they can see each other again and our kiddos are looking forward to it. I've heard this promise before so we'll have to see how it goes.
So then now our home is "empty". We are not yet on the list for 2 reasons. First, we appreciate a break from time to time. It's nice to spend time as a core family and nurture the relationships with our forever children and between my husband and I. For us this break needs to be about 2-4 weeks. Second, this time, we are waiting until we get back in town - my husband and I are on a tropical vacation celebrating our anniversary and we can't take kiddos until we come back. We'll decide exactly when to get back on the list after we get back home.
Soon we will be waiting for another call, wondering what will happen, who will come to our family, and what that story will look like in the long run for our family. It's an exciting time. I'm looking forward to it.
Today though, I'm happy in our wait. I'm not quite ready to get back into the crazy. I'm enjoying the time with my hubby and when we get back I assure you I'll be happy to spend time with Logan and Summer. I can't wait.